Wendell's Diary

Schizophrenia is often misunderstood. It’s a condition that shapes how I perceive the world and how I navigate it. For me, it’s not about hearing voices or seeing things that aren’t there; it’s about how my thoughts and perceptions sometimes diverge from reality, especially when I’m unmedicated. But at the same time, it’s deeply tied to my creativity and sense of purpose. This is my story of how schizophrenia has impacted my life, my work, and my relentless drive to create. --- Understanding My Schizophrenia When I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, it was because I wasn’t perceiving reality in the same way as others. For years, I held strong delusions—I believed I was a prophet, a chosen one here to save the world. My thinking was intense and obsessive, and I couldn’t see the harm in the decisions I was making. But I wasn’t alone in this struggle. During that time, I was also homeless, without support, and constantly fighting for survival. Schizophrenia magnified everything, making it ...

For much of my earlier life, my worldview was shaped by religious doctrine, with the ultimate goal of eternal life through devotion to God. But as my beliefs evolved, I faced a profound question: without the framework of religion, what should I dedicate my time and life to? The answer I’ve found is rooted in personal growth, creativity, and the transformative potential of technology. --- From Absolutes to Exploration In my old way of thinking, meaning was absolute—placed upon the world through the lens of faith. But as I moved away from those beliefs, I had to reframe my understanding of life. Instead of starting with predetermined truths, I learned to find meaning through living, experiencing, and reflecting—a cornerstone of my philosophy. The shift raised new questions: What does it mean to be a good person? How should I live? What should I do with my time? These questions, far more grounded than religious absolutes, became the foundation of my new priorities. --- The Pursuit of Eter...

Life is an unpredictable journey, full of experiences that shape us in ways we can’t always anticipate. At the heart of my philosophy lies a simple truth: we must live our lives first and only then make sense of them. Meaning and understanding don’t come from preconceptions—they emerge from engaging with reality and learning from our environment. --- Truths Aren’t Pre-Made We often fall into the trap of believing that we can define truths before we’ve truly experienced life. But in reality, truths don’t exist in a vacuum—they’re discovered through action, reflection, and growth. When we impose preconceptions onto our environment, we risk distorting what’s actually there. Instead, we need to allow life to unfold naturally and trust that understanding will come in time. --- Learning From the Environment Living by this philosophy means staying open to what life presents. It’s about observing, engaging, and letting experiences shape us rather than trying to force them into a predefined fra...

Recently, I transitioned from using the Brave browser on my Android TV box to the YouTube app, and it has significantly improved my viewing experience. Initially, I relied on the Brave browser to block ads, but as ad-blocking methods became less effective, I decided to explore the YouTube app on Android TV and discovered several benefits that enhance my experience while also supporting content creators. ### **1. Enhanced Viewing Experience on Android TV** **Optimized Design**: The YouTube app for Android TV is specifically designed for larger screens and remote control navigation. This makes browsing, searching, and viewing content much more intuitive and enjoyable compared to using a web browser. **Seamless Features**: The app offers easy access to subscriptions, better video quality controls, and a user-friendly interface, making it well-suited for the TV viewing experience. **Relaxing Screensaver**: One delightful feature of the YouTube app on Android TV is the screensaver that acti...

In our everyday lives, time is a constant presence, guiding our schedules and routines. Yet, how we experience and interpret time can vary remarkably. A peculiar example from my own life illustrates this: the fast-running clock on my microwave, which gradually accumulates minutes and creates a parallel time zone within my home. #### The Nature of Time Philosophically, time has long been a subject of intrigue and debate. From ancient philosophers like Aristotle, who viewed time as a measure of change, to modern thinkers who explore its relativity and fluidity, our understanding of time continues to evolve. My microwave’s fast clock invites a reflection on these concepts, highlighting how time is not just an objective measure but also a subjective experience shaped by our tools and perceptions. #### Dual Realities Living with two different time zones—one dictated by my precise, internet-synced devices and the other by my fast microwave—creates a unique duality. This situation mirrors phi...