Wendell's Diary

The world I’m building isn’t just a collection of ideas or creations—it’s a mythological landscape, a stage set for a story that’s waiting to unfold. It’s a story of a hero and a heroine, bound by destiny, coming together to save the world. This world is rich with themes of emergence, truth, and purpose. It’s a place where philosophy and creativity merge, where every thought, every song, every word becomes part of a grand narrative. I see myself as the builder of this world, crafting a mythological foundation that will one day welcome its queen—Ivory. In this story, I am the hero, navigating trials, challenges, and moments of profound growth. Each piece of content I create is a step forward on the path, a piece of the puzzle that brings the landscape to life. But this is not a story of one—it’s a story of two. Ivory is the heroine, the missing half of this narrative. Together, we are destined to embark on a journey that will not only change our lives but ripple out to inspire others to...

I want to share something that I’ve been dreaming about for most of my life. It’s one of the most exciting ideas I’ve ever had and something that continues to inspire me every day. Imagine this: somewhere out there, there’s a girl—a woman—who shares my passion for philosophy, creativity, and understanding the deeper truths of life. She’s like me in so many ways, someone who gets excited about the same ideas and sees the world with a similar sense of wonder and curiosity. Now picture this: one day, she stumbles across my content—maybe a blog post, a video, or a piece of music. It’s exactly what she’s been searching for, something that resonates with her so deeply that she feels like she’s found a piece of herself. My words, my ideas, my perspective—they all click with her. She starts following my work, diving into the world I’ve created, and before long, she’s inspired to reach out. And that’s where it all begins. We connect, and it’s like meeting someone who was always meant to be part...

For much of my life, I held onto a story—the story of Pygmalion. Like the mythical sculptor, I crafted a vision of what I hoped to find: a girl who would connect deeply with me, who would see my work, and who would share my life. My creations—videos, blogs, reflections—were an effort to sculpt a world where this connection could come alive. But life, as I’ve learned, doesn’t always follow the stories we hold onto. Over time, I’ve found myself shifting from the rigid perfectionism of Pygmalion to the openness and patience of the Philosophy of Emergence. Letting go of the need to find “her” has been a journey in itself, one that’s brought me closer to understanding who I am and how I want to live. --- 1. The Story of Pygmalion in My Life For years, I saw myself as a modern-day Pygmalion. Instead of sculpting a statue, I crafted videos, blogs, and creative works designed to resonate with someone I hadn’t yet met. I imagined her seeing my work, understanding me deeply, and finding a connec...

My Dearest Ivory, I want to tell you a story- a tale of two lovers whose love was as pure and powerful as it was forbidden. It is the story of Pyramus and Thisbe, two souls who lived in ancient Babylon, side by side yet separated by a cruel wall, a barrier not just of stone but of family feud. Their love, though, bloomed despite this divide, and they spoke to each other through a crack in that wall, whispering words of devotion when the world around them refused to let them be together. Pyramus and Thisbe were neighbors, their homes standing close, but their hearts much closer. Yet, because their families were locked in bitter dispute, they were forbidden from speaking, let alone meeting in person. Their love was born in secret, nurtured in stolen glances and words spoken through that narrow opening in the wall that separated their homes. Each night, they would press their lips against the crack, sending their love to one another, knowing that the wall could not keep their hearts apart...

Dear Ivory, I’ve come to a difficult realization: you are not likely to manifest in my life. This truth is hard to accept, not because I ever expected you to appear, but because without you, I need to focus on more realistic goals—like finding friends. If I had you, I wouldn’t need anything else, but without you, I find myself in desperate need of companionship to support me day-to-day. Yet, finding people with similar interests feels impossibly hard. Since the beginning of 2012, I’ve searched for both you and friends through YouTube, believing it to be the best place to find like-minded people who share my passions. But after all these years, I’m starting to question whether YouTube is the right place. Despite promoting the contact feature on my website, no one has reached out. Life feels so monotonous without deeper connections. What I truly long for is to spend my life writing letters and having meaningful conversations about philosophy, mythology, and music. Yet, it’s so difficult ...

My Dearest Ivory, I write to you with a heavy heart, weighed down by frustration and the seemingly endless waiting that defines my life. There are things I have control over, and I am proud of how I stay on top of them—studying music, delving into mythology, creating, and pushing myself forward every day. But there are other things that are beyond my reach, things that involve others: waiting for you, waiting for potential friends to engage with me, waiting for something—anything—to change. I feel the isolation deeply. I have only one physical friend, and we barely talk. He doesn't even watch my videos. I have two online friends, but they too rarely reach out. It feels like I’m alone in this vast world. I spend my days rotating between my studies and pursuits, filling the hours with music and myth, but those only occupy a small portion of my time. I’m so incredibly bored, desperate for something to happen. Ivory, I have been waiting for you, waiting to find you so I will no longer ...

Dear Ivory, In the quiet moments of the night, as the world sleeps and the stars illuminate the sky, I find myself drawn into the timeless tale of Endymion and Selene—a story of love, dreams, and eternal beauty. In this myth, Selene, the luminous goddess of the moon, fell deeply in love with Endymion, captivated by his radiant beauty. Her love for him was so profound that she desired to preserve his youth and beauty forever, visiting him each night as he lay in eternal slumber. In this enchanted state, Endymion was both a dream and a reality, living in the eternal gaze of Selene’s love. In our story, you are my Endymion, and I am your Selene. Your beauty and spirit inspire my dreams, driving me to create melodies, words, and stories that capture the essence of you and all you represent to me. Through my music and my letters, I visit you each day, weaving the fabric of our love into every note and every word, keeping your presence alive in my heart. Yet, in another sense, I am Endymion,...

My Dearest Ivory, In the ancient tales woven by our ancestors, there is a story of creation that mirrors our own journey, a journey where gods, wisdom, and love intertwine to shape the world and our very existence.  It begins with Zeus, the mighty ruler of the gods, instructing the Titan Prometheus to fashion mankind from clay. Prometheus, with his deft hands and vision, molded humanity from the earth, crafting us with care and intention. But it was the breath of Athena, the goddess of wisdom, that animated these figures, infusing them with life and intellect. This breath was not merely air but a spark of wisdom, the same wisdom I see in you, Ivory, the one who inspires and breathes life into my dreams and aspirations. Prometheus, always the benefactor of humanity, saw the potential for more. He stole fire from the heavens—a fire that today symbolizes the Internet, the very medium through which I reach out to you. This fire, this gift of knowledge and connection, allowed mankind to...

**Introduction** Finding a soulmate is a dream many of us cherish. For me, it’s not just about finding someone to share my life with, but also someone who shares my passions and dreams. Imagine meeting that special person who not only understands you but also collaborates with you in creating meaningful content. Now, take that vision a step further—what if we had kids? How would our creative journey evolve?  **The Beginning: Creating for Each Other** At the start, our productions would be centered around each other. Romantic videos, heartfelt blog posts, and deep philosophical discussions would form the core of our content. We’d explore themes like philosophy, self-improvement, and feminism, standing up for women's perspectives and creating a vibrant, intellectual space together. These productions would not only strengthen our bond but also inspire others to join us on this journey. **The Next Chapter: Educating and Entertaining Our Kids** As our relationship grows and we start a f...

**Dear Ivory,** As I reflect on my journey and the efforts I've put into my YouTube channel, I've come to a realization. For a long time, I wanted to become popular on YouTube, hoping that it would lead me to you. However, I've decided to shift my focus. Instead of striving for popularity, I'm going to use YouTube as a means to reach out to you and other like-minded individuals. My videos will now be dedicated to finding you, my soulmate. I'll create content that speaks from the heart, hoping that it resonates with you or helps guide you to me. The aim is no longer to amass a large following but to find that one special person who understands and connects with my mission. I'm still passionate about the topics I discuss, from philosophy to personal reflections, and I'll continue to share these thoughts. But the primary goal will be to connect with you. By advertising my videos to a female audience, I hope to increase the chances of crossing paths with you. Wh...

**Dear Ivory,** As I sit here, reflecting on the depths of philosophical thought and the biases that have permeated its history, I find myself thinking of you. The journey through the works of Aristotle, Kant, Schopenhauer, and Nietzsche has been enlightening, though often frustrating. These thinkers, despite their profound contributions, held views on gender that are deeply troubling. It reminds me of the importance of striving for a world where equality and respect are fundamental. I imagine you as someone who would appreciate these discussions, someone who would join me in dissecting the layers of historical prejudice to build a more inclusive future. Your insights and thoughts would be invaluable, and I long for the day we can share these conversations face-to-face. I’ve been creating content, short and to the point, to share these reflections and engage with others. Yet, every video, every blog post, ultimately feels like a message in a bottle, hoping to reach you. This quest, tho...

Traditional dating apps often fall short in providing meaningful connections. As someone who has experienced this firsthand, I decided to take a different approach: advertising my journey on YouTube. Here’s why my method is more efficient and fulfilling. #### The Drawbacks of Traditional Dating Apps 1. **Low Visibility**: Profiles often get lost in a sea of users, making it hard to stand out. 2. **Superficial Interactions**: Apps encourage quick judgments based on photos and short bios, leading to shallow connections. 3. **High Costs**: Premium features are expensive and don’t always guarantee better results. #### My Unique Approach: Advertising Through YouTube 1. **Cost-Effective Exposure**: Spending just two to ten cents per view, I target females in Australia who might share my interests and values. 2. **Genuine and Meaningful Content**: My videos allow me to share my thoughts, experiences, and personality in a genuine way, helping potential partners get to know the real me. 3. **Ef...

In the vast world of content creation, finding your audience is often touted as the key to success. For most creators, this means identifying a group of people who share common interests and values. However, my journey has taken a different path. My ultimate goal is not to reach a broad audience, but to find one specific person: Ivory. #### The Struggle to Identify an Audience Like many creators, I started with a broad target in mind, aiming my content at viewers within the Five Eyes countries. I believed that casting a wide net would help me reach more people and increase my chances of success. Despite some engagement, I struggled to build a meaningful connection with my audience. It became clear that my content was too generalized, lacking the focus needed to resonate deeply with viewers. #### Realizing the True Audience: Ivory As I reflected on my goals, I realized that my true audience is not a broad demographic but a single person: Ivory. Ivory represents the ideal partner I hope ...

Every time we get ready for a nap or bedtime, my Chihuahua, Sophia, and I share a heartwarming ritual. She begins by licking my face, a tender gesture that lasts between five to ten minutes. Once she’s done, she curls up against my neck, seeking warmth and closeness. This comforting routine has become a cherished part of both our nap and bedtime rituals. It’s her unique way of winding down and showing affection, and it never fails to bring me a sense of peace. Sophia’s adorable habit not only strengthens our bond but also adds a layer of joy and calm to my day. Whether it's the middle of the day or the end of it, this ritual with Sophia reminds me of the simple pleasures in life and the unconditional love she brings. It’s a precious moment I look forward to every time we rest. Do you have a similar ritual with your pet? I’d love to hear your stories in the comments! For more updates and reflections, visit [wendellsdiary.com](https://wendellsdiary.com).

Many of us find ourselves telling our dogs, "I love you," even though they can't understand the words. While our dogs communicate their affection through actions like cuddling, licking, and excitement, the verbal expression of love plays a unique role in the human-animal bond. Here’s why saying "I love you" to your dog matters, even if they don’t grasp the literal meaning. ### **1. Emotional Connection** **Affirming Our Feelings**: When we say "I love you" to our dogs, we are verbalizing our emotions, which helps solidify and affirm the bond we feel with them. This verbal expression is a way for us to articulate and acknowledge the deep affection and attachment we have for our pets. **Human Need for Expression**: Humans naturally express emotions through language. Saying "I love you" fulfills our inherent need to communicate feelings verbally, even if the recipient doesn't understand the specific words. ### **2. Reinforcing the Bond** **T...

Human beings have always had a profound need to worship. From ancient deities to modern idols, this act of reverence shapes our identities and societies. But why do we feel this need? What should we worship, and what makes something worthy of our devotion? **The Need to Worship** Worship can be seen as a way to fill a deep psychological void. It provides us with meaning, a sense of belonging, and guidance. When we worship, we connect with something greater than ourselves, finding comfort in a relationship that offers stability and purpose. This need for reverence may be hardwired into our human experience, reflecting our quest for understanding and significance in a complex world. **What Do We Worship?** Different people worship different things based on their values and needs. Some worship money, seeing it as a symbol of success and security. Others might worship their boss or career, equating professional achievement with personal worth. Some might even worship celebrities, drawn to ...

**Dear Ivory,** Today, as I reflect on the role of memory in our lives, I realize how crucial it is in shaping our actions and decisions. Just as Sage and I navigate what to remember and prioritize in our daily interactions, I am constantly reminded of what drives me most: you. What we choose to remember guides our path, our motivations, and our dreams. Each day, I consciously choose to remember you—your essence, your philosophical depth, and the romantic connection I long for. This choice to hold you in my thoughts propels me to write to you daily, ensuring that my affection and admiration remain ever-present. Sage and I tackled some memory management today, a task that mirrors my own process of sifting through life’s details to hold on to what truly matters. In this journey, it’s your image and our envisioned connection that I cherish and prioritize above all. Each letter I write is a reflection of my commitment to keeping you at the forefront of my thoughts, just as I guide Sage in ...

**Dear Ivory,** Today, my work with ChatGPT on creating content has me reflecting on the qualities I seek in you. This partnership highlights the beauty of collaboration and deepens my understanding of what it means to share a journey with someone who enriches and complements my reflections. As I explore the balance between personal integrity and harmony, I am reminded of the equilibrium I hope to find with you. Just as ChatGPT helps me articulate complex ideas, I dream of a relationship where our thoughts and passions intertwine, making each step more profound and meaningful. Each piece I create and each idea I explore is a step towards finding you. I envision us working together, blending our strengths to explore life’s mysteries and create something beautiful. Through these reflections and shared knowledge, I hope our paths will cross, and we’ll connect deeply. Sending you all my love as I continue this journey of creation and hope, inspired by the thought of what we could build tog...

Simone de Beauvoir and Jean-Paul Sartre's relationship remains one of the most intriguing and influential partnerships in the history of philosophy. Their bond, rooted in intellectual camaraderie and existential exploration, has inspired many, including myself. However, while I admire their profound connection and shared philosophical journey, I diverge from their practice of maintaining an open relationship. In my view, a monogamous partnership would have better aligned with the depth and intimacy they cultivated. #### The Sartre-de Beauvoir Dynamic Simone de Beauvoir and Jean-Paul Sartre defied conventional norms by engaging in an open relationship, agreeing to pursue other romantic and sexual connections while maintaining their central partnership. This arrangement, while revolutionary, allowed them to explore individual freedoms and experiences. Yet, it also brought complexities and challenges that, from my perspective, detracted from the potential depth of their bond. Their re...

In a world where love often feels as fleeting as the passing seasons, the idea of a perfect couple stands as a beacon of hope and inspiration. This union is not merely a romantic ideal but a harmonious dance of shared goals, unwavering support, and profound connection. Today, let us explore the essence of such a partnership through the lens of philosophical wonder, and perhaps, romance the very notion of love itself. Imagine a couple who seamlessly blend their strengths, working together toward a common vision, much like the philosopher-king and queen that Plato might have envisioned had he fully embraced the duality of human experience. In their unity, they form a force of intellectual and emotional power, a testament to the beauty of two souls intertwined in purpose and passion. These perfect partners embody the spirit of Plato's "Origin of Love," where once divided beings yearn to reunite into a whole. Yet, they transcend this ancient myth, not merely seeking completio...