Wendell's Diary

When I look back at my journey, it’s remarkable how much my goals and worldview have transformed. For years, my sense of purpose was tied to faith. I believed in the doctrines of religion and was guided by the promise of eternal life. But as life unfolded—through challenges, heartbreak, and introspection—I began to question whether this framework truly aligned with who I was becoming. A Turning Point: Faith, Loss, and Reflection The breakdown of my marriage was a pivotal moment. It left me searching for meaning in a way I never had before. While I turned to philosophy for answers, I still carried remnants of religious thought. The concepts of sin and salvation lingered, shaping how I viewed myself and the world. But over time, as I explored deeper philosophical ideas, I began to see these beliefs as limiting rather than liberating. Philosophy became my refuge—a way to rebuild my understanding of life, purpose, and morality. Gradually, I let go of the idea of eternal life as something b...

When I began creating videos and blog posts, I started with a goal: to find a wife. That purpose drove me, shaped my content, and gave me direction. But as time passed, I realized that this goal might never be achieved. I began to understand that life doesn’t always align with our plans, and I questioned whether having a goal at all was necessary. Could I live a fulfilling life without a set destination? That realization changed everything. I stopped focusing on rigid objectives and started focusing on the process itself—living, creating, and learning without worrying about where it would lead. The shift was liberating. Without the pressure of achieving a specific outcome, I could let curiosity guide me. I could explore, observe, and create with intention, letting life’s puzzle pieces fall into place naturally. Life became a giant puzzle. Every day, I add a piece, slowly filling in the picture. Some sections are clearer than others because they align with my passions, like philosophy. ...