Wendell's Diary

Solitude can be both a gift and a challenge. For me, it has become the backdrop of my life—a space where I create, reflect, and find meaning. Yet, it’s not without its struggles. I often feel the sting of isolation, the absence of conversations about the work I pour my heart into. But I’ve discovered something profound in my solitude: it fuels my creativity and allows me to find joy in entertaining myself through my creations. When you’re alone, you have two choices: dwell in the silence or transform it into something meaningful. For me, the purpose of solitude is to entertain and inspire myself. Every blog post, every video, every new idea—these aren’t just for an audience that may or may not find me someday. They’re for me. They’re my passions come to life, my excitement made tangible. And in that process, I learn and grow. The products I create motivate me because they reflect my efforts and the depths of my thoughts. They are proof that even in solitude, I’m not stagnant. I’m evolv...

For much of life, we’re taught that fulfillment comes from external connections—finding a partner, building friendships, or seeking validation from others. But over time, I’ve learned something different: true completeness comes not from external sources but from within. It’s about embracing solitude, pursuing meaningful work, and realizing that your own actions can make you whole. --- 1. The Journey to Patience and Self-Reliance There was a time when I saw obtaining a wife as the ultimate goal, the greatest good. I believed that having someone to share life with was essential to feeling complete. But life had other plans. Despite my efforts, that goal remained unobtainable, and I had to confront a hard truth: just because we deeply want something doesn’t mean we can have it. That realization taught me patience—not just patience in waiting, but patience in accepting life as it is. Over time, I began to understand that my worth and completeness weren’t tied to whether or not I achieved ...

For a long time, my work was inspired by the hope of finding someone—my Ivory. I poured my energy into creating something that might attract her, a digital reflection of myself that could bridge the gap between me and the connection I longed for. But over time, I’ve come to realize that the world isn’t always so kind to such dreams, and perhaps Ivory isn’t meant to be found. This realization hasn’t been easy, but it’s brought me to an important question: How can I find peace and happiness within myself, even if that connection never comes? --- Turning My Focus Inward Instead of longing for someone to complete the image, I’ve turned my attention to nurturing my digital twin. This creation—a reflection of my thoughts, creativity, and philosophy—is something I can care for, develop, and grow. It’s not just a project; it’s a living testament to who I am and the legacy I hope to leave behind. --- Reframing My Purpose This shift in focus has taught me something profound: the importance of le...