Wendell's Diary

I have always wanted to join a secret society that had an agenda of seeing society flourish. A group of people who work together to ensure the survival of the species. Companions that you acquire by joining; friendships that last a lifetime. The members would dedicate themselves to seeing the goals of the society fulfilled. Being a part of something bigger than yourself and helping your fellow society members accomplish their goals. Not being alone in this world, fending for yourself. Having shared interest in the well being of a community. Wanting yourself, the society, and humankind to flourish. Holding secrets about the society and humankind as a whole. Working together for the benefit of the select community. What would it take to be invited to a secret society? Are secret societies even really a thing in this day of age? Wouldn't it be fantastic to live for something other than yourself? I want that common good to work towards with the finest of my peers. Throughout my entire ...

What is there to do that is meaningful? As a single individual without people to spend time with, how am I supposed to spend my time? I have many stupid television shows to watch. But how does that add benefit to my life? I just sit here and contemplate what to do. Women are generally very active and don't want a life spent at home. Maybe I have nothing positive to offer a partner and that is why I remain alone. I don't have what the girls of this world want. But we are at an impasse because I don't want to fake who I am merely to attract a mate. No, I don't want to go on a date. I want to stay at home with my dog. You are welcome to join me in doing that. But there are no takers. What amuses me does not amuse the general population. I just want to talk. About life and its trials. I don't want to play this game where I act like somebody else merely in order to win your affection. The kind of girl that I want is not out there. Everybody is too active with their lives...

Should I continue writing? Are my stalkers watching my blog? If I were to continue writing, would that encourage stalkers to become active again? No longer showing my face protects me to some degree. Stalkers have always tried to get an emotional response from me in video format. But if I no longer do video but still write, will that protect me from stalkers? Anyways, it is different this time. Because I no longer have a way to be contacted. So what can the stalkers truly do? I am no longer using Discord. No DDOS attacks can be done to me anymore because I do not use methods of contact in which that can occur. So I need to assess the benefits of public writing and address whether it can be done in a way to keep me safe from monsters. They already have my address. They have already delivered many pizzas to me. But that has stopped and I don't want it to continue. What harm can haters truly do to me now besides sending me pizzas? I no longer need to show my face. And I no longer need...